Monday

Tomorrow is the last day of the month. I've been feeling so depressed lately. I want to do well and I want to lose weight and have a good new year. I wanted to lose all the weight I needed to by the end of 2008 so I would not have to start 2009 off trying to lose weight. It is so hard sometimes well it's hard all the time. Sometimes I just don't know how people do it. what do they have that I don't have? why do I suck at doing this??

I've been trying for so long and some people come along and the first try they get it right. I keep trying and trying but I just can't stick with it. I need to have a no fail plan. I read the Dr.Phil book and I thought for sure that would help but it didn't. I'm sure it helped others but not me. I wonder what book would help me. I think what I need is a gym membership and a little will power, Dr.Phil says will power is not what I need to lose weight. I have no money for a gym pass.

I need to be more positive when it comes to weight loss. I think I need to believe in myself more.