Emotional week

These past 11 days have been the most emotional days of my life. I won't be talking about it because it's too hard.

DG mini goals (update daily)

Today I did awesome!! I am so proud of myself and i feel good about me. I'm a little hungry but I feel really great about me self.

400 extra calories and one last time for REAL

Today is going to be a great day (diet wise)

I'm still very stressed about my personal life, and yesterday I let it get the better of me. I ate my weight in junk and that's never going to happen again. I am going to plan some junk food into my menu from now on. and when I get that feeling during the week I will pick the day I want to eat my small amount of junk.

I will give myself an extra 400 calories for the whole week. and when the day is the worst for me then I will eat my calories. That is my new plan to deal with a day like yesterday. I do not ever want to feel like food has the answers and it will fix the problems and I don't want to feel out of control and want anything from food other then nutrition.

My weight has affected all parts of my life and I want to be done with it. I want that issue to be over with. I need to deal with things in other ways other then food. Food is for your health and I'm using if against my health. It should help me stay a live not kill me. I know I've said it one hundred million times that this time is going to be my time but this time I'm SURE of it. This time I'm going to do it one last time and for good. No more stopping and going, losing and gaining. Other people do it everyday and I will too. I will do it and it starts today. I have faith in myself even if no one else does.

This is not motivation to get me through this week. I mean this and you can mark my words. I have to prove myself to myself. I have been letting this go and letting this go but not anymore. Food and laziness is not going to get in my way of living life every again. Neither will fear of doing this all in vain.

I'm really done this time for good. don't believe me, check in with my three months from now and I will be 156lbs.....MARK MY WORDS I CAN AND I WILL!!!!
and then one month later 149lbs.

video from you tube by::: Iwillproveyouwrong

The worst day in the world

Today has been the worst day in the world. I was under so much stress that I ate myself into a sugar bliss coma, not a real coma but it felt like it. I ate junk until i got sick and then went to sleep only to wake up and eat some more junk

fiber one
skim milk
orange
english muffin with cheesewiz

then i fought with my husband and when to the store to buy and eat

pudding
cherry danish
brownies
chocolate turtles

I ate so many calories I'm not sure what to do.

enlish muffin

i think i'm going to stop for the night.
I'm going to do my workout and lift my weights.
I will dance for a little and think about how i can better handle a day like this.

TICKERS (use daily)

Exercise for the week

Problems and Solutions

P: Home alone and bored
S: call a friend that likes to talk

P: Rainy and sad day
S: do some scrapbooking and organize pictures

P: Ate too much in the morning and now hungry
S: Eat salad,drink water and eat low fat jello

P: Don't feel like working out
S: Tell yourself you are only going to do it for 10 minutes

P: Sick
S: rest and don't push yourself

P: In the mood to do nothing but eat some junk food
S: have a bite and a big glass of water, and remember that too much junk and u feel like junk.

P: You feel like your hard work is not paying off
S: look at some old photo's of you at your heaviest

P: Had a really bad food and exercise day
S: the next day try extra hard, workout longer and eat a little less calories

P: You feel like you are going to give up
S: remember that you will one day, but it's not today

P: STRESS
S: do anything but eat your stress away, because eating never gets ride of it, it just adds to it.

P: Starving
S: thing about the hunger scale and if you really are starving, drink a glass of water then eat.

P: Depressed
S: think about how happy you will be fitting into those jeans and going shopping for fun.

P: Weighed self and didn't lose weight or even worst gained weight
S: remember that the scale is not always right and if you know you did well then you did.

P: Feel discouraged
S: go on you tube and look at success stories, and see how happy people are slim (not the emo's)

1200 calories WINS (use daily)

okay calorie counting you win!!
I thought I could do this without counting my calories but it turns out that for now I need to write down everything I'm going to eat. So I've written down a menu plan and I'm gonna follow it for a week then make a new one.

Friday Oct 17th- October 24th

Breakfast
1 cup of Fiber one 200 cal
skim milk .5 cup 45 cal

Snack
fruit 80 cal

Lunch
omelet 300 cal
baby carrots 35cals

snack
fruit 80 cal

supper
chicken 250 cal
veggies 50 cal
potato 138gram 128 cal

snack
2 cup air pop popcorn
and salted season 100 cal

I will follow this for one week and then make a new one.
Hoping to drop a waist size by oct 31st- 36-35


ps remember that if you eat like crap then u will loook and feel like crap.

week 4 update

curvyspo

Holiday

*Foods*
fruit smoothie
grapes
more grapes
cake
taco


Today was suppost to be a great day but it has turned into a crapfest!
I ate ok and I did my workout for 30 minutes.
I had some man problems but it's 12am and it's over now. moving on to tuesday that will be a good day. It's all planned out and i'm taking the kids to the park and it will be fun. I'm going to get some well needed rest for me full day tomorrow.
I have to make a you tube video on the 15th and up date. I want to be 181 or 180 on my weigh in. so tomorrow i'm going to eat 1200cals and bust my ass.
peace out

Free day

Today I gave myself a free day. I was hanging with friends and drinking and stuff so I eat whatever I wanted to which was not horrible.

1 potatoe with sour cream and butter
fish
pancakes
strawberries
yogurt
grapes
chips
small slice of cake
candy
drinks
juice

okay so many it was more then i thought. but it was a lot better then i normally would do and i didn't eat as much of those things as i would otherwise.

I woke up the next morning sick! and gassy

I did my workout out
Elip 20 minutes
and weights 10 minutes

Weight Loss Tips

• Eat 5 Servings of fruit and vegetables each day
• Watch your portion size
• Do not skip meals
• Replace all calorie drinks with water
• Exercise
• Write down what you eat
• Eat slowly
• No more diets
• Set goals
• Take before and after pictures
• Make changes you can stick with
• Get a good nights sleep
• Make sure you are losing FAT not muscle
• Make sure you eat enough
• Eat fiber and protein
• Eat whole wheat not white
  
• Eat breakfast
• Don't eat 3 hours before bedtime
• Find a weight loss buddy
• Drink green tea
• Always have healthy snacks around
• Keep junk food out of the home
• Find inspiration
  
• Keep busy
• Think about the food scale before you eat
• Don't eat sugary foods for snacks
• Chew gum
• Make small changes
• Stay positive
• Don't eat if you are not hungry
  

Okay day-DAY 11

Today has been an ok day.

I had french toast for breakfast with yogurt and strawberries and some green tea.

Grapes
waffers
cheese crackers
small sugar cookie

Thinking about the hunger scale has really been helping me. I think about if I am really hunger before I eat, and depending on how hunger i am then i choose what to eat.

I need to eat all the fresh foods first so that don't go bad before i move on to processed foods. If I eat the boxed things first then the fresh food will go back and that would be a big waste of money which we don't have much of right now.

I'm going to do my workout again today and do some weights. I'm going to go make the chicken for supper now and use some of the fresh food with supper.


orange
yogurt
drink some water

and then wait for supper.

Supper
Chicken
veggies
kidney beans
grapes
fuit loops
skim soy milk

elip 30 minutes
weights 10 minutes

Friday

Today is a good day so far.

Breakfast
oat bran-with milk and sugar

lunch
stake and bbq sauce
grapes

snack
freeze

supper
hamburger helper
broccoli

Workout
30 minutes on the elip
10 minutes lifting weights and dancing
15 minute walk
10 minute walk
12 minute walk


I feel tried when I workout but I also feel great and very proud of myself.

When I eat cheesecake I feel kinda great while I'm eating it but the second it's gone I feel really bad and sad that I ate something so high in fat and calories.

Hunger Scale

Last Day-February 1st

Monthly Goals

October 31st 179
November 3oth 169
December 31st 159
Jan 31st 149
February 1st-DONE FOR GOOD

Highest healthy weight 159lbs

Better days a head

Last night I went to be ill because of the junk I ate. I am having a better day today. I did eat a cookie but it was some kinda oatmeal and it was my lunch. I really need to stick to eating only things i can count the calories for sure not guess them.

I have big plans for october and I really wanted to be 170lbs but right now I'm still trying to break into the 170's so I have a new goal for now and my goal it to lose 5lbs by oct 21st. 2.5lbs each week for two weeks that is a small doable goal.

Oct 8-15 LOSE 2.5lbs
Oct 15-21 LOSE 2.5lbs

What I need to do to reach my goal

Wednesday

workout for at lest 30 minutes
drink 8 glasses of water
eat veggies for supper
and jello for snack

Crappy day

today was stupid and crappy and i will do better tomorrow.
I'm sick from all the junk I ate today and sad too. More sad then sick. Some times i feel like i can't do this and I should just give up. I feel so depressed and I feel like the only person who has this hard a time. It feels like 24 hours is too long in one day to eat right and not mess up. I need some real help like boot camp.

Well without boot camp I will have to do this alone. Right now I feel so horrible and sick and fat and useless. oh crap what a crappy day for me. I want to just wake up thin. I'm sick of trying to take this one day at a time.... (tear) I'm going to show and go to bed and try and do this all over again but better.

I will not buy anymore ice cream no matter if it's on sale for 1$ and I will not eat any pie even though it's free. I will send it away. I will not bring anymore junk into this house
and I will drink 8 glass of water a day.

NO JUNK
8 GLASSES OF WATER A DAY
WORKOUT 4 DAYS A WEEK
LEAVE SOMETHING ON MY PLATE ALWAYS
KEEP BUSY

Missed a day

not sure why i didn't blog yesterday. Yesterday was a okay day. I did some weight training. I also had a big bowl of ice cream. I wanted to go for a long walk but I didn't so this time I'm going to try harder.

I do need to write down what I eat everyday because when I don't I go over. even when I'm worried that what i ate was bad i still need to write it down.

Breakfast
.5 cup of strawberries 25 calories
1.5 cup of ice cream 510 calories ( I could have had 10 cups of strawberries for that amount of cal)
sucker 50 cals

Lunch
cup of soup 100 calories

bad day, i'm gonna walk it off or something.

Me in a swimsuit

swimsuit edition

I have plans on looking good in this one day.

15 Tips on cutting calories

1. Drink skim milk
2. Drink water not juice
3. Eat one slice of bread or half a bagel
4. Use cooking spray instead of oil or butter
5. Eat extra lean ground meat instead of regular
6. Take the meat out if at all possible
7. Leave a few bites on your plate
8. Trim fat off meat before using
9. Bake instead of fry
10. eat berries for sweets instead of ice cream and cookies
11. Drink diet pop instead of regular
12. Drink light beer if you must drink beer
13. make a low fat smoothie instead of ice cream
14. Doggy bag things
15. Drink a glass of water before every meal
16. 
    

Day 3-Small changes

I read the tip of the day and it said to make small changes. So that got me thinking about the small changes I can make. Something that will stick and I will be able to use for good.

Do not drink juice anymore, only water and calorie free things.

.5 glass = 50 cals*5= 250 extra cals a week and 1000 a month =12000 cals a year is 3.4lbs a year

Mop my floor ten minutes a day is 50cals *5= 12000 a year which is minus 3.4lbs a year.






I hate math.

when I think of some more small changes I will write them down.

one small yet large change is to DRINK 8 glasses of water each day.

TICKERS (use )

30lb goal for Feb 1st 2009







Total weight loss goal

DAY 2

I'm not going to follow the same menu for the whole week. I just don't want to do that and the great part is I don't have to. I can eat different things each day and see what works best for me. I'm going to write what I eat each day but it's after I eat it.

I did my workout today and I almost died after 30 minutes, I'm out of shape. This month is going to be great.


Breakfast
Protein shake-290 calories
apple 70cal

Lunch
toast 240 cal
peanut butter 100cals
2 tangerines 60

snack
apple 70
cheese 70

Supper
noodles 230
sauce 150
cheese 60
bread 50

Snack
jello 10
grapes 60
tangerines 60
rum and diet coke 100
whipcream 20 calories
frozen berries 60 cals
total cals burned each day 2,000
cals burned from exercise 200
total cals intake ::::1700
Deficit for the day:500
stopped eating at 10:00pm


walked 20 minutes and did elip 30 minutes

DAY 1

I always starts diets on the first of all most every month. Today I woke up and had pizza for breakfast, that was not my plan but i have it out of my system now and it's time to get back on track.

it seems to me that i always have to be in the right state of mind in order to do well. sometimes i have this willpower that is very powerful and i want to keep going and going and it's also when i see results like one pound a day and then when it slows down so do i.

when my feelings change and i feel like this is never going to happen for me then i stop. october is going to be my month for real change and if i only lose 10lbs chances are i won't gain it back all in a week end like i did last time.

October holds the key for me, this month I will prove myself to myself. I really need to cause i;m starting to lose faith in me. 10lbs of REAL FAT is awesome. not water weight not muscle not anything but some real gross fat. I can do it. I will post 4 october videos and it will be awesome. i will need a new skirt when this month ends and i will be a year older. TO THE NEW ME!!!